Bare arms women, Drive the men crazy!

Hello LOVELIES! I know I've been gone for a minute, but here's what I've been up too. finalizing my birthday plan especially since it is two days away now. I still haven't bought the cake mix, I haven't bought the ice cream, I can only find one lawn chair, I still haven't gotten my hair braided, everytime I ask, my cousins have done something really stupid and pisses my aunt off. My aunt is absolute, unabashed genius when it comes to hair, but she already braids tight! Imagine how much my head would hurt if she braided it while she was ticked off. NO THANK YOU. So, tonight I'm supposed to be getting it done. Last night I picked up the hair and stuff for my styles. I got two packs of black tracks and a blonde track. They didn't have the dye in the colors that I wanted, so now today I have to pick up the dye. Now, I've had this blog since 2008, and although my look has changed/matured, I think I did a very good job on keeping my identity right? I mean when I started you didn't think I was black and now I'm trying to be white or something right? I mean, I'm still Gabby, Black, cuban cherokee mix, and I'll be damned if someone accuses me of trying to fit a caucasian's shoes. I have no problem with any other raace! None, it's just I like being what I am and even though I change the outside, like make up and hair from time to time, doesn't mean that I'm trying to be Paris Hilton, young, stupid and useless. I just thought I should bring it up because my dad brought it up to my mother, like he brings up all the problems with me, and tells her that he's worried that I'm losing my true (african-american) identity and am trying to assimilate into a whiter identity just because I happen to read teen magazines, I love how he says I read the white ones but he never realizes that I only pick the ones up when there is someone like us on the cover! Vanessa Hudgens, Raven Symone, Eva Longoria, Beyonce', Michelle Obama, Oprah, Jada Pinkett Smith, Women on color who are making differences! Selena Gomez, the only white girl I picked up, was Taylor Momsen, and everyone knows why she is on the list. She's a 16 year old ,with a voice like Joan Jett, common sense like Oprah and self esteem like Marilyn Monroe, why wouldn't she be on the list?! I just seem to think that its interesting that whenver my father has an issue with me, it's never brought to MY ATTENTION! You're problem is with me right? So tell me, don't run, its really annoying!


Peculiarly Yours,
xoxo Gabriella

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California Gurls Lurve the Mid-west~!

 So I've great even awesome news! Bryan and I are talking again, but I don't want to take it too far. So, we have plans to go see Eclipse on the 30th. Yes, you heard correctly, Opening night baby! Here's the thing, My best friend, whom I've known since I was in diapers, is coming from the Golden Coast, to stay a whole two weeks with us. She arrives, Sunday. If it turns out that she is into Twilight, i wouldn't want to go without her, ya know what I mean? But then again, I haven't seen her since I was eleven! We write letters back and forth but often I don't recieve them, damn those perverted post office employees.

 So I'm thinking about having a drive-in Movie theater birthday Party. I'll Be 19 which rocks, but I don't know how to go about planning it. I found a movie theater, but it doesn't show Eclipse until June 7th.  So I need to decide what to do about my birthday plans. I know for a fact that I am going to get the multicolored extensions...I'm thinking in the range of Orange, Green and Blonde. I mean just imagine those colors in my dark auburn red hair! It will be so bright and colorful. I kinda want to get it done before Kayla gets here, but I don't want to rush it... So I guess I'll just have to show her photos.  Now about the birthday deal, the movie theater does double features, which means I could possibly be out until Midnight! That's what I call a party.

Speaking of...Thinking about my driving delimna and how at the moment I'm looking at a lebaron, I was watching Veronica Mars, and GUESS what she drives? A clothtop lebaron. I'm such a fangirl. It's kind of ridiculous in a way... Okay question for everyone that is of some color, other than caucasian. How would you feel, if you were the only person of your kind in the business/establishment that you work for, and suddenly you hear, the other employees, asking how they are to show that their business is very diverse, and I quote" do I just tell them that we have a black girl?" Just doesn;t seem right to me..
I think, I'm going to take Kayla, and my sis to Eclipse, with me and Bryan, Very Very Excited, celebrated Father's day. Took my dad and my grandpa out to eat, at the big GC, God we were so stuffed we didn't know what to do with ourselves! It was probably by the grace of god...or Bastet that we didn't get thrown out of that place. We look absolutely crazy LOL~




   Speaking of "religion", I'm starting become uncomfortable with the whole affair. I've been reading a lot of books about paganism, and I really like the way wiccans live their lives. However, I haven't broken the news to my parents, because I haven't really chosen for myself yet, however, I GET REALLY AGITATED when Masai askes me if I've talked to god lately. I just can't grasp the type of fear, and devotion everyone else has for him, It just seems to piss me off that everyone keeps telling me that I need to talk to him and that I need to really take control of my religious life.
 It seems like everyone thinks I'm living my life wrong, simply because I'm not a god fearing woman. I'm sorry, but that's just not me, I can not, worship something that doesn't allow a couple the same rights as everyone else, I can't worship something that causes people to tell me that I will go to hell, for being friends with people who happen to be homosexual. To me that's like saying you're going to hell because your black and god was white. BULLSHIT! Everyone know that god was middle eastern/black anyway, when is it going to sink into people's minds that we should be equal? I mean seriously, telling a couple they can't be together just because you don't believe in it has got to be the most ridiculous waste of time ever!
  So now, I have the whole night free, because practice has been canceled due to a complete school power outage which also has to do with why I haven't been able to check my email since... oh... 10 am this morning? Well, I plan on spending the rest of the night reading and watching Veronica Mars.


Peculiarly Yours,
Gabriella

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I am Pissed Hear me ROAR

So....Usually I try and start an entry off with something good, even groundbreaking if I know this entry is going to be bad. But I am so pissed off right now, that not even thinking about all the cool stuff I did/got today is going to distract me from putting the hurt down on Verizon Wireless. So everyone knows that my phone was off for a while. So I was just going to turn it on again, well I couldn't because Cricket completely deleted my account. I don't have the same number, I don't have the same phone, if I went to them in person, it would just be like I'm a completely new person and that I was ordering a plan and phone for the first time.
And of course, they won't just let me grab a plan and keep my old phone, NO of course NoT! I am sooo pissed off right now, So I completely give up on them, and go back to Verizon Wireless. I did'nt like em before and I really don't fucking like them now! First I have to get trapped in that absolutely idiotic 2 year plan bullshit, secondly, I also have to get a new phone! So that's cool, cuz they have this touch screen phone, the HTC DIAMOND.


However, they neglect to tell me that they are completely out of this one type of phone, so they completely cancel my online order and tell me that there is something wrong with my credit, instead of being men and women and letting me fucking know that you didn't HAVE ANY! So not knowing that I order it twice! TWICE! It is canceled both times! So I start to call around to different stores in my area, all of which tell me that there isn;t any diamond's in stock. Now, as I'm typing this I'm on the phone with the "SUPERVISOR" and she's asking me to bear with her as she checks the inventories. *EYEROLL AND GAG* -gets hopes up + takes in a breath- ............................................................................................... -and I blow it out disaapointed one again- NONE OF THE PHYSICAL STORES HAVE IT IN STOCK! BUT NOW SHE'S CHECKING FOR THE ALLY THE 2ND PHONE I ORDERED..............................................- takes in a breath + the store has one!
( Go AHEAD I GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO SPAM HER! ) So she has me drive all the way to a store, just to have some ugly looking white man look right in my eyes and lock it as I put my hand on the handles! I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY right now, you just have no idea. Its a whole nother day that I'm going without a phone! So needless to say, I'm not going to be in a good mood in the morning, and that's when I have to go and help plant, with Bl + BR. and to be quite honest, Bl is seriously starting to piss me off, she's always trying to tell me what to do even though she's not MY supervisor! In fact, she's not even a full-time coworker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Went to Lunch with My main Chica! It was awesome we had that good good popeye's lol, I was so full of excited of seeing my friend again, that I hardly ate! Plus, I got a new set of headphones, so now I can go upstairs and blast my sorrows, in surround sound and on top of that, my music will sound better coming out of both buds; and I even got a few dounughts! I'm going to order my phone tomorrow morning and I swear if something goes wrong, after I've done everything needed I'm going to torch the place, there it is in the distance future, going up in smoke...

All I have to say for the moment.
Pecurliarly Yours,

~Gabriella~

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Dear Grumpy Toast, lets get Buttered!

So today, is my cousin's birthday! I wish I was spending it with him, instead of being in my house. But it's alright, he knows that I love him and that's all that matters. So, I wanted to try a different hairstyle today...I did my hair like this.

I think it looks really similar to the asian picture! I mean this was the style I was going for and it was stuck in my head all this morning, while I was getting ready to go to work. Speaking of work, I learned how to use illustrator, publisher and access! I'm actually excited because I can now use those programs to make my blog even better in the future! I can start putting the like disclaimer "this photo is mine" kind of thing across them! I really need to figure out how to do that! Like Jasmne's! Her's have those cute little circles on them! I WANT ONE SOOO BAD! I'm so excited because I should be recieving my first check tomorrow, which is great because I'm going out with a friend, and they still haven't told me what we're going to be doing. To be quite honest, the only thing I'm concerned about is; whether or not this person is actually going to make it on time, sometimes they make me wonder if they even OWN a watch. 

 I found out something INTERESTING, my parents have read my blog. Too be quite honest, I kind of have mixed feelings, they've already gotten on me about my profanity usage, but I'm kind of glad at the same time, because they're actually reading it. Ya know what I mean? I can't really describe it, but it is what it is...Youtube has finally stopped cutting off photos! I just came back from the library with 4 brand new Hardback novels, easily 500 pages a piece, I"M SO EXCITED!, and a seventeen magazine, because I have to keep up with the makeup and fashion trends of course, I am trying to run a business! lol. 

 I'm kind of worried about driving. Whenever I'm in the front seat and driving with my mom, it seems like everything is too close and its not. What if my perception is so off, that I can't drive? What if I turn out to be like that old lady in the bifocals that nearly killed us twice? or that guy that wasn't paying attention and almost rammed into the side of us. Or that time after Mom's surgery, when she couldn't turn her neck all the way and rammed straight into that nasty ladies car???????? I don't want that to happen but I want to be able to drive myself around! Out of my group of friends it's not like I'm the only one that can't drive, but its not a peer presur kind of thing, I wanna be able to drive myself around and be dependant on noone but me... Speaking of which I was driving home and I saw this car and it was ssooo cute, it needs a little fixing up but I want it!

Peculiarly yours,

Gabriella

P.S. Keep a look out for new stuff on my jewelry line.

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Moons and Ra

 So I haven't been on since the beginning of the month, and I really just need to take a break and organize myself. Not my schoolwork, or my email account, or my business. Just my actual self. So I should probably do the obligatory catch up entry....What should I talk about first? I'm really tiring of the anticipation of waiting for my first paycheck. I need it in order to start down the path of my to do list. I can't get my temps, I can't get my car, I can't turn my phone on, even though, lets be serious, noone's going to call anyway, and  its seriously putting a damper on my parade!
  Speaking about a damper, What the hell is up with all of THIS rain! It's seriously counterproductive to my working habits. I've seriously never felt so sleepy in my life! And as I type this it is raining duckets of cats and dogs outside the window and there is some poor dumbass driving an ice cream truck. Seriously? What kid is going to be outside waiting for ice cream? But I digress. I like my job, its not hard or difficult, its not even tedius. It's is simply a breezy kinda job. I come in, they give me some sort of office aid task and I take care of it. Things are coming along with my fashion line, I have been guaranteed a spot in the Glassworks Fashion show. As a designer. My orange clutch and other pieces similar are exactly what they're looking for.
  Speaking of Looking for, I need to start updating my makeup kit. (Which is the perfect timing because a few of my integral i.e. favorite pieces are missing and I don't know where they went! I'm really into Kat Von D, and I have found that she has a line with Sephora, which is in my local mall, right across the balcony from MAC which is right next to an apple store! Can you say FUCK YEA? 

So here is my list of things that I want!

• Kat Von D True Romance Eyeshadow Palettes $34, Sephora

Peculiarly Yours,

~Gabriella~

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Clairvoyance has a price.

 So  I have a lot to catch you up on. First things first. Bryan is completely out of the picture, I hope he is perfectly happy with his girlfriend that he probably was never going to leave me for. I was sitting there thinking about that text message :I chose her. At first I was upset. and then I realized something. This whole mess, started with that. That he had chosen someone else and kept coming back to me...I'm not good enough for a relationship but a sideline chick? Hell yea, I fit the bill. And I'm tired of it. He chose his girlfriend, and that's how it should have been. And if he had chosen me, then I wouldn't have taken him, because if he's able to up and leave his actual girlfriend for me, then what's stopping him from leaving me the same way? Nothing, because the truth is, no matter how beautiful a woman is there is always a man out there tired of fucking her. So I'm single and actually content with the way I feel for once. Usually, I'm sad for a while and then I try and find another, and I think that is one of my problems. I'm ready to jump at every chance and I need to look at them better.
  In better news, I finally had my first trip to Starbucks. I try so hard not to fall into fads. But I finally broke down and went with My aunt Brenda and had a strawberry smoothie, because I don't do coffee. Period.

And the verdict? It was fucking disgusting. It was such a waste of money. My aunt got something and my younger cousin. Our total was $11. 75 whatever my strawberry cup of shit cost was such a waste of money. Oh it was horrible! it tasted like they had something other than vitamin D milk in it, and the strawberries didn't taste or feel, as they slid down my throat like real strawberries but more like those artificial gels that my dad gets to put on top of our fresh cut strawberry shortcakes. Total Fail, I will never visit Starbucks ever again. It's a wrap you failed epically. 

  So Practicallly everyone knows about my little blog shop. I'm still adding to my collection, but I finally finished my skirt. I also have a new clutch and a camera pouch. Plus, I've been invited to show my designs at a Fashion show in K-state. I'm so excited. I'm going to donate some of my pieces and model. Hopefully, it will bring me some publicity. Y-Quest is finally hiring again, so I'm working on updating my resume so I can email it to them. I mean It's so close i can walk which is why it would be such a great job for me. Plus I can do the night shift and work saturdays, so that leaves Thursdays and Sundays for Dance Practice. Speaking of which is seriously pissing me off, because my first practice is the 4th . 3 days from now, and I still haven't gotten in touch with that freaking physician.. I can't dance until I do and she won't get back to me. AARRGH!
  I think that is pretty much it for now. So....
Peculiarly Yours,
~Gabriella~

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